I confess I’m ugly, I’m to skinny I think seeing my bones are just flat out nasty, I hate my smile, I hate being short, I honestly don’t know who i am anymore, I’ve been cutting my self since I was 12-13yrs old, I started smoking at the age of 6yrsild at my aunts celebration of life, I wanted and attempted to commit suicied 3 times, been in the nut house 3 times the first time I got my own self help though bec I knew I needed it, I told my mom I needed it but she didn’t believe me, so I it fet up, and walked my ass, to a hospital in the middle of the night, my ex of 2 1/2 yr. was Lying and cheating on me an denied it even when I sent him a pic of him an a girl holding hands at the mall, I was tore up, and my other ex drugged me and rapped me, an got me pregnant and I haven’t talked to him since the day I told him I was prego, he wants nothing to do with me or the baby, I love my son, but my step dad makes me second guess myself all the time, makes me feel like I’m a bad mother and I don’t do shit, when I try all I can do, he’s has threatened to kill me In front of my mom and she did nothing but sat there, but from all of that, I ended up with bad depression and bad anxiety disorder, my anxiety attacks aren’t pretty at all, I twich, and cry and shake and sit in a corner or on my bad rocking back an forth, but I sit here and tell my self I’m not crazy but I just know deep down inside I am, no one has seen me have an anxiety attack, not even my parents!!